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What is my value?

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For the last two years I have had prophetic dreams come true in my life & I’ve enjoyed life but on days like today I don’t know or understand what my family & friends value in me.

First of all I’m a late bloomer, I’ve lacked concept of life until now but I’m getting better at it yet I’m also a little vicarious with makes a few people, both family & friends, worry about my choices, actions, & decisions. The people that believe in me have watched me fail at anything I’ve done throughout the course of my life.  You may not admit it but I’ve viewed every avenue I’ve attempted as a failure due to feeling held back by something, fear maybe, criticism, or whatever strange feeling it is.  My only comfort has been professional wrestling which I’m not meant for in ring competition though I’m pretty certain I could wow few audiences if the opportunity to do it comes around. Still everything else, idealized goal, has been short of what I wanted.

The worriers, you all are going to kill me with your worries! I have broad shoulder & know how to carry many loads but you cannot put your insecurity about me & reflect it back on me.  Honestly, it makes me want run farther away than anyone realizes. You can say that’s selfish but to me it’s preservation because I cannot let what I do affect you all. When incidents arise I work my best handle them straight forward as to minimize the effects to only myself & rest of you do no have go through any more than you have to.

Maybe that’s the burden I have to endure because I care too much because other people care too much & have an over abundance of care for me. I just want a balance because if I don’t find it I’m going to choice reckless abandon over common sense. That doesn’t sound good at all.

 

Jonathan.

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A bad decision I made in life

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My bad financial decision

My bad financial decision

What can I say?  Nothing really.  About nine years ago I made huge financial mistake.  I cosigned for a loan my first & only loan.  Since then I tried many times to catch it up without asking for help.  I didn’t ask for help when I went abused credit cards but someone as there for me.  Once again I do not want to ask for help for this but unfortunately I don’t have kind of money laying around.  As much I’ve tried to work for it I don’t have it.  If anything this can be a lesson to others that try to take on a loan.  If you don’t handle it responsibly it will come back to haunt you in the worst way.  I’m going to go meet with this lawyer because legal action isn’t something I want to drag on.  I’ve already let it drag on long enough.  My current life is attempting to get things straight.  I want to get them straight because the woman I’m pursuing definitely wouldn’t want this in the baggage department.  I have few friends in high places but not many and I wouldn’t ask them for this amount of money.  So I am reaching out anyone & everyone who’ll read this.  I dug this hole myself but I need help getting out.  The cliche is “what are friends for?”  Well, I am at big low in my life.  And if you can lend a hand then I’ll greatly appreciate it & do anything in my power to repay your generosity.  I in no way asking for a handout.  This is a plea to anyone who has few extra bucks because I refuse to give up until I can put this issue to rest.  I’ll even make you an advertisement for your business or you for your contribution at I Cut Your Promo. (http;//ICutYourPromo.com)

I want to work for this any way I can.  Especially since I virtually have no income for six weeks over the summer & would like to be able to work for each and every one of you.  Please… this is my chance to right a bad decision.  Thank you for reading & click donate if you can.  Sincerely Jonathan.

Jonathan Miller
223 Brookhaven Dr.
Nitro, WV 25143
304-884-5386 (call or txt)
jonfun@gmx.com or mejonfun@gmail.com

 


 

 

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