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For the last two years I have had prophetic dreams come true in my life & I’ve enjoyed life but on days like today I don’t know or understand what my family & friends value in me.
First of all I’m a late bloomer, I’ve lacked concept of life until now but I’m getting better at it yet I’m also a little vicarious with makes a few people, both family & friends, worry about my choices, actions, & decisions. The people that believe in me have watched me fail at anything I’ve done throughout the course of my life. You may not admit it but I’ve viewed every avenue I’ve attempted as a failure due to feeling held back by something, fear maybe, criticism, or whatever strange feeling it is. My only comfort has been professional wrestling which I’m not meant for in ring competition though I’m pretty certain I could wow few audiences if the opportunity to do it comes around. Still everything else, idealized goal, has been short of what I wanted.
The worriers, you all are going to kill me with your worries! I have broad shoulder & know how to carry many loads but you cannot put your insecurity about me & reflect it back on me. Honestly, it makes me want run farther away than anyone realizes. You can say that’s selfish but to me it’s preservation because I cannot let what I do affect you all. When incidents arise I work my best handle them straight forward as to minimize the effects to only myself & rest of you do no have go through any more than you have to.
Maybe that’s the burden I have to endure because I care too much because other people care too much & have an over abundance of care for me. I just want a balance because if I don’t find it I’m going to choice reckless abandon over common sense. That doesn’t sound good at all.
are the sweet words that were said to me when my life took on a whole new meaning.
Welcome to my world… it’s a fun, lighter side of life, & really it’s not serious. That’s the way I like things but also enjoy expression, experiences, & feelings.
This is what brings me to my website, blog, tonight. It’s a question that’s deeply on my mind because it’s something that makes me wonder how many more people are out there that do not know what real love is like.
Have you ever heard the saying, “you’re looking for love in all the wrong places.” I’ve heard it countless times throughout my lifetime but for once I think it has smacked right in the face. Not in a way that I expected. It’s come in a very unique form that makes me appreciate the perspectives that are presented but genuinely love on the deepest of levels.
What are the current issues, well for myself it’s patiences… due my eagerness but not only that it’s that for a while now my thoughts on the back of my mind are always upon this exquisite creature. Like any unique breed comes a very different set of lines to follow & sometimes it’s rough to remember that because it’s not the same.
I was in a conversation just the other day where the word love was used & I’ll admit at that very moment I wanted to instantly react with these words, “that’s not love.” I didn’t react because I would have been wrong on many levels & possibly hurt the someone so near to my heart that its indescribable sometimes. This bond is reaches far beyond words, admiration, & trust for if it wasn’t for that there wouldn’t be a solid foundation for all the ups & downs I see or have already seen. I hope one day they’re not afraid but that may not happen. I don’t know but what I do know is that I am always right here no matter what is said. You do that for me & it means the world to me.
We live in world full of problems, undoubtedly, but the best approach to this is just one day a time. A very close friend sent me that image above & it’s very important to remember to do your best daily. Sometimes, we don’t, there are those days where we have bad days & we fail to do anything justifiably good. In fact the seven billion people on this earth can do extremely evil things to each other than are completely unacceptable, unfathomable, & most of all just sadly unfortunate.
One situation doesn’t define us, solutions to world’s problems come from common people & not the decision makers in suits. They may weld the power but the truth is as sensible & sentient beings we have God given rights to live the way we all individually see fit. Freedoms.
What am I getting at for this Monday Blog?
We have choices, many choices, & there are times we make the wrong ones. If you make one then you should admit to it because when you make a mistake it much easier to make a negative a positive by choosing to say, “I was wrong in my actions & deserve any consequences you have for me.”
Whether it’s out in the open, personal, or private the solutions & roots to betterment begins inside ourselves so we can shae it to, sometimes, a dark world. As for the bad days, you pick up, make up, & “never do it again.” If you don’t learn from mistakes then you are doomed to repeat them.
The world has enough doom & gloom nowadays to be a monster like so many are. Slay the monsters, including your own, & make the world a better place by choosing positive paths. Not destruction.
It’s time for another birthday, & yes I am glad I’ve made it this far, but what have I really done with my life so far?
Sometimes, here is where it’s going to get fun, I live my life as if I’m a super hero with soulutions to everyone’s problems. Which, actually I don’t have, there are times I do pretty good at but Tony Robbins started his paid life coach career a long time ago from scratch but for some reason I don’t see that happening for me. Granted, I am a nice guy & would give you the shirt off my back to help a friend out in any way.
Sometimes, I feel a CEO of a company & corporation minus the pay. Actually, I am because in 2008 I started part time self video publishing & then continued into photography. Also, here is fun one, I was on YouTube nearly before anyone else way back in October of 2006. Technically I can call myself a YouTube Original if I put more videos out.
My point is, at this stage in my life I should be a successful 35 year old with my own family, supporting myself, & living the “American Dream” but as my life tends to go it’s all about being different.
All my life, and even now, something about the world has defined me to being an outcast so if I am such then I will find other freaks just like myself & we will rise. Trust me… mark my words as I venture on into what life has to offer via the opportunities than can be made just by being yourself. I will do it my way. If you don’t believe me then get off my crazy train but if you do then hop on now because it’s going to get interesting!
What can I say? Nothing really. About nine years ago I made huge financial mistake. I cosigned for a loan my first & only loan. Since then I tried many times to catch it up without asking for help. I didn’t ask for help when I went abused credit cards but someone as there for me. Once again I do not want to ask for help for this but unfortunately I don’t have kind of money laying around. As much I’ve tried to work for it I don’t have it. If anything this can be a lesson to others that try to take on a loan. If you don’t handle it responsibly it will come back to haunt you in the worst way. I’m going to go meet with this lawyer because legal action isn’t something I want to drag on. I’ve already let it drag on long enough. My current life is attempting to get things straight. I want to get them straight because the woman I’m pursuing definitely wouldn’t want this in the baggage department. I have few friends in high places but not many and I wouldn’t ask them for this amount of money. So I am reaching out anyone & everyone who’ll read this. I dug this hole myself but I need help getting out. The cliche is “what are friends for?” Well, I am at big low in my life. And if you can lend a hand then I’ll greatly appreciate it & do anything in my power to repay your generosity. I in no way asking for a handout. This is a plea to anyone who has few extra bucks because I refuse to give up until I can put this issue to rest. I’ll even make you an advertisement for your business or you for your contribution at I Cut Your Promo. (http;//ICutYourPromo.com)
I want to work for this any way I can. Especially since I virtually have no income for six weeks over the summer & would like to be able to work for each and every one of you. Please… this is my chance to right a bad decision. Thank you for reading & click donate if you can. Sincerely Jonathan.
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