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are the sweet words that were said to me when my life took on a whole new meaning.
Welcome to my world… it’s a fun, lighter side of life, & really it’s not serious. That’s the way I like things but also enjoy expression, experiences, & feelings.
This is what brings me to my website, blog, tonight. It’s a question that’s deeply on my mind because it’s something that makes me wonder how many more people are out there that do not know what real love is like.
Have you ever heard the saying, “you’re looking for love in all the wrong places.” I’ve heard it countless times throughout my lifetime but for once I think it has smacked right in the face. Not in a way that I expected. It’s come in a very unique form that makes me appreciate the perspectives that are presented but genuinely love on the deepest of levels.
What are the current issues, well for myself it’s patiences… due my eagerness but not only that it’s that for a while now my thoughts on the back of my mind are always upon this exquisite creature. Like any unique breed comes a very different set of lines to follow & sometimes it’s rough to remember that because it’s not the same.
I was in a conversation just the other day where the word love was used & I’ll admit at that very moment I wanted to instantly react with these words, “that’s not love.” I didn’t react because I would have been wrong on many levels & possibly hurt the someone so near to my heart that its indescribable sometimes. This bond is reaches far beyond words, admiration, & trust for if it wasn’t for that there wouldn’t be a solid foundation for all the ups & downs I see or have already seen. I hope one day they’re not afraid but that may not happen. I don’t know but what I do know is that I am always right here no matter what is said. You do that for me & it means the world to me.
We live in world full of problems, undoubtedly, but the best approach to this is just one day a time. A very close friend sent me that image above & it’s very important to remember to do your best daily. Sometimes, we don’t, there are those days where we have bad days & we fail to do anything justifiably good. In fact the seven billion people on this earth can do extremely evil things to each other than are completely unacceptable, unfathomable, & most of all just sadly unfortunate.
One situation doesn’t define us, solutions to world’s problems come from common people & not the decision makers in suits. They may weld the power but the truth is as sensible & sentient beings we have God given rights to live the way we all individually see fit. Freedoms.
What am I getting at for this Monday Blog?
We have choices, many choices, & there are times we make the wrong ones. If you make one then you should admit to it because when you make a mistake it much easier to make a negative a positive by choosing to say, “I was wrong in my actions & deserve any consequences you have for me.”
Whether it’s out in the open, personal, or private the solutions & roots to betterment begins inside ourselves so we can shae it to, sometimes, a dark world. As for the bad days, you pick up, make up, & “never do it again.” If you don’t learn from mistakes then you are doomed to repeat them.
The world has enough doom & gloom nowadays to be a monster like so many are. Slay the monsters, including your own, & make the world a better place by choosing positive paths. Not destruction.
It’s time for another birthday, & yes I am glad I’ve made it this far, but what have I really done with my life so far?
Sometimes, here is where it’s going to get fun, I live my life as if I’m a super hero with soulutions to everyone’s problems. Which, actually I don’t have, there are times I do pretty good at but Tony Robbins started his paid life coach career a long time ago from scratch but for some reason I don’t see that happening for me. Granted, I am a nice guy & would give you the shirt off my back to help a friend out in any way.
Sometimes, I feel a CEO of a company & corporation minus the pay. Actually, I am because in 2008 I started part time self video publishing & then continued into photography. Also, here is fun one, I was on YouTube nearly before anyone else way back in October of 2006. Technically I can call myself a YouTube Original if I put more videos out.
My point is, at this stage in my life I should be a successful 35 year old with my own family, supporting myself, & living the “American Dream” but as my life tends to go it’s all about being different.
All my life, and even now, something about the world has defined me to being an outcast so if I am such then I will find other freaks just like myself & we will rise. Trust me… mark my words as I venture on into what life has to offer via the opportunities than can be made just by being yourself. I will do it my way. If you don’t believe me then get off my crazy train but if you do then hop on now because it’s going to get interesting!
Where do I stand is an important analytical question for self evaluation. Somedays I think my answer is that I am not well defined or I’ve stuff doesn’t end up going my way yet I come out smelling like rose because i know how to handle situations. Society is a mess & the Unites States in general is a more paranoid place than I used to be but that’s all because terrorists made this nations fearful of every devil behind every bush. This isn’t a political rant, it’s a life rant on people & interactions. “The greatest tragedy is people don’t think.” Ryan Miller
I study interaction because so many people get it wrong, don’t express them well, or choose to put to much ill conceived thinking into something that should remain simple. I’ve been a victim of many of those circumstances where just because I know how to do something regardless of my title I’m treated differently. I’m a doer & want to do because I can benefit my family, my friends, & people I love. I getting to that point where if someone decides to cross my path trying to prevent what I love doing they’re going to be a stain on my road to what I want to accomplish. I love being a nice guy but I have a very close friend that’s taught me a little about being on the edge & how actions speak louder than words too. That’s why at the moment I feel like the odd man out of place in the overall picture, yet give me a day because those feeling pass. What’s important are the people who I know who support me without question. If I didn’t have those kind of people around me then everything I do would really feel quite meaningless, pointless, & everything I’ve done is waist of time. This year has been full of ups & downs. My 2013 hasn’t been all that easy but if it were not for God above, my own nature, & the company I find myself around I couldn’t do what I do. I made reference to the word title in the second sentence of this paragraph. That’s a reference to my real life job as custodian or service staff for a school system & it’s a title I cannot stand. I’m just going to blatantly & bluntly come out and compare ti to slut shaming, yeah you read that right, which has been around for quite a long time. I know the you all reading this out there are like, “hold the phone.” How can you compare your title of custodian to slut shaming where a woman makes herself available to men and gets criticized for the action. Simple, I ended up getting criticism for what I’m good & enjoy doing because someone else thought it was wrong of me to be doing photography, videography, digital media, & social media for a girls basketball team I spent four years around & put countless hours into making memories for them to enjoy after they move of from high school days of being a student athlete. I was shamed by one person, the community showed there endless support, & I ended up with very close friend in the process.
What I’ve learned in year timeframe with my close friend is a lot about life & sometimes following your desires. Individually I’m pretty strong person but my resolve wains at times because it sometimes I go out of my way to help all of my friends even if it means sharing a lot loads. Sometimes those burdens come in all different packages but that’s most of life is tackling all of those with a good support group of people who can really tell you that tomorrow the sun will rise & you have a fresh start to really keep proving to everyone what you’re made of even it you only have a good day. Who knows what might change overnight? Just always be ready for because its sometimes it can be a true test of what kind of person you really are. Always rise up to challenges & defeat them so that you can become better at what life throws at you my friends. Yet sometimes its all about consistency & nothing changes.
Below is an incident that occurred at an elementary school last week just a few minutes from where I live. Currently I work for this school system and have some open concerns a I want address. These are my own thoughts that may not reflect those of Kanawaha County Schools.
KANAWHA COUNTY, W.Va. (WSAZ) — A way to thank teachers for their service at Cross Lanes Elementary may have sent a disgruntled employee over the edge, prompting the school to be placed on lock down Thursday
Let me first state that I do not agree with his actions of making terror threats of attempting to blow up the school & endanger the lives of the children that attend that school, teachers, & other service staff.
What I do agree with are his feelings. Let me be clear, the above statement in black in white openly says I DO NOT agree with any part of those thoughts, he’s justified in having the feeling of being left out, excluded, or ignored. Okay, I understand not everyone in life can be a winner but some of the time people & organizations do not recognize the hard working contributions of the service staff employees of the school systems. Apparently, gift cards were enough to make this custodian snap, he may or may not of had history of flying off the handle. Still my point is as a person we’re not supposed to exclude others yet I know it happens quite a bit. Society is tiered. Poverty, middle class, & wealthy people but this happens at our jobs too. How many times to service staff miss out because they are considered lesser people? Remember the Civil War & it fight against slavery it in this country? Americans fought & died to make a person of color, blacks, free in this country. Now we’re fighting among ourselves over gift cards. Has that what disgruntled employee have come down to anymore?
Honestly I don’t know but what I do know is that I want to make people more aware of people & their feelings. I know many people can relate to being left out & we all cannot be winners. Still, I want to bring this subject to light that we’re taught from a very young age that were not supposed to segregate people. Everyone is supposed to be included in when the staff gets rewarded but that isn’t the case. Sometimes we are shunned like we don’t have even the slightest clue of what is happening in the school. Show up, do your job, & go home is what were expected to do & yet that all many people find as satisfaction in life. To me there is more to life than that. That’s why the I can identify with this custodian & how he felt left out. Overall my point that I may work for the education system & miss out but don’t forget that we are people too. That’s the way we want to be treated, like a person regardless of our job title.
Thanks for reading, I’m a custodian, but my title Is “Jonfun” Jonathan Miller.
EDITORS NOTE: I began writing this before I went to Creation Festival NorthEast & feel even more adamant about posting this after listening to testimony from others. If you truly live as Christian in this world you have to be daring & bold just as Jesus was in his ministry. I don’t have a perfect life but all of my work goes to glory of God & the way I live.
And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men;
Either make the tree good, and his fruit good; or else make the tree corrupt, and his fruit corrupt: for the tree is known by his fruit.
I know what you did last winter
So, I’ve decided that I’m going to share this with everyone I know because my closest friends said that what I went through was on the verge of unnecessary. You don’t agree with me because all of this is being told from my perspective & as we all know there are two sides to every story.
I have preface it with some back story because my life isn’t exactly linear… well it is in a existence to time, space, & universe standards but for me it diverges into who I am. What makes me seek out passions & start working towards a better future whether it’s ten minutes down the road or ten years. My first year on internet was 1996 when I was the ripe old age of only sixteen. It wasn’t high speed because it was dial up account but it was fast enough for the original form of social media, chat rooms, message boards, & internet relay chat.
Even back then I was already open to the experience of getting online and interacting with people from my local area to around the world. No surprise? Right? After I graduated high school most of my existence was online and before social media became a big deal and totally ingrained into the mainstream public culture.
Fast forward a few years to mid 20’s. I had a girlfriend for nearly most of that time and describe it as such, two wonderful years, two shaky years, & two years that it unraveled. Someone I had completely naive trust in and I’ve had to slowly recover from such. So much so that my first real interest after her was Canadian girl in western province who was a very forward eighteen years old. We had ten years age difference but I puppy loved her to death until she was fed up with me. Yet, it sparked my fire back up to look for a woman.
Here’s where the story picks up, if you haven’t been reading the last three paragraphs they may be tad bit unnecessary but they’ll give you a clearer perspective of who I am. So the year was 2008 when all of the garbage starts and I’ve had to endure being accused of being sexual predator three times in the course of 18 months.
My first incident occurred with a girl then 14 who’s now 18 on a Christian website called FaithFreaks.com where I worked for year as volenteer cousiler & youth leader. I had many people that had my phone number including many teenagers. During a late night conversation I said something personally to her about myself that at that time freaked her out that she reported it to other administrators & leaders. What did I say? Well, something she didn’t understand & was sexual term but I was not trying to do anything with her or stalk her. After the investigation interview they cleared me of wrongdoing & it was just a big misunderstanding with a temporary ban from the website.
My second incident happened when I had started work at Chuck E. Cheese right before I lost my job at NAPA Auto Parts in April 2008. The job started in February to be exact & this incident happens in June. Where some woman, while I’m dressed up as Chuck E. Cheese, accuses me of fondling her breast. My manager quickly dismisses it. She knows I’m not some sick pervert, seriously I had the back ground check before I started to work there & a majority of their staff is teenagers. By the next week I have an incident report to send to corporate office. Then I have four Charleston police detectives show up at my house. Where I explain how it all went down & ask me to come in the next day to be questioned. Sure, I have nothing to hide. I’m a very honest & straightforward person. Ask anyone that knows me. You want know anything about me, ask! Well, after the questioning the officer seemed pretty cool about nothing going on. Yet, this wasn’t going to end peacefully as the woman decided to sue the company. It ended after a year apparently round after round in court.
(Editors Note: You have to pass a comprehensive background check to work at Chuck E. Cheese as an adult. Same for when you start with a school system.)
Certainly my year couldn’t get anymore turbulent could it, wrong. My third incident occurred as substitute when I started for Kanawha County Schools. A teacher at Point Harmony accused me of sexual harassment. I did receive a written verbal warning for this incident because the word I used that irritated the woman was busty. Since then, I’ve rarely even used that word since then due to making me paranoid to even say.
After 2008 it’s been pretty quiet so I decided to launch into social media, digital media, photography, video, & commentary on political views. So far I’ve had pretty decent time doing including diving into being a public figure. That’s why my facebook & social media is set to public. I have nothing to hide, also a majority of minors I interact with I have parents on my facebook page as well. The only issue is Kanawha County schools considers social media dangerous. To me that is dinosaur thinking because if you understand technology you use it but school systems or at least most them advise their professional, service, & other employees to avoid them. It can all lead to “trouble”.
Here, time for me to be blunt about this. The only trouble it can cause is if you’re sexting, or having conversations with minors that are not appropriate. Almost every other day it seems there is a news story on some person, adult to minor interaction, that thought it was a great idea to do send or exchange sexuallity explicit materal. Which, here let me put you this way, I’ve NEVER did this. Don’t plan on doing it. This world has become everyone is suspect & if not you have to be doing something bad. I’ve treaded the boundaries unintentionally & learned from my mistakes but this past fall of 2012 drama reared its ugly head again.
Even with most of my safeguards of being an honest & outgoing person occasional people don’t agree with the way you live. So, I was all set have a great season with the St. Albans Lady Red Dragons basketball team. I had someone pop up & cause my life to be hectic for a few months. Here is what happened… (see below images from my personal facebook account)
As you can see I had a parent whose daughter I met in the general public at a haunted house decide I was some kind of threat. Apparently people think I’m either an easy target or just plain stupid about the way I conduct myself. I’m a person of character & integrity.
If you don’t believe me then spend some time around me which is what I did with the girls basketball coach Scott James. He’s good person & if he thought for a moment I was threat to any of his student athletes I wouldn’t have had just access to him & his team for five years.
Furthermore I made myself accessible to not only the student athletes but the parents. People who would appreciate my hard working efforts to cover the team as photographer & digital media gatherer. So, where am I? Limbo… I never heard back from the principal or the board but my plans are if I’m still in this area & a custodian at Saint Albans High School I plan to be back where I was with Lady Red Dragons. Doing photography & being part of the support staff for this team. Finally, if releasing this costs me my job at Kanawha County Schools because I’m releasing this via my personal & public website then I am not meant to stay an employee there & it’s time to move on. Which is what I’ve been looking for since I started position because I’m not cut out to cleaning, thought I’m not cut out for a lot of things but that doesn’t stop me from trying. Thanks for reading about crazy life.
One side note, judge me & say what you’d like about me but I am not after any teenage girls. Yeah, I know many of them but seriously try actually being mature because I don’t think with my penis, really it doesn’t control my brain. Thank you.
What can I say? Nothing really. About nine years ago I made huge financial mistake. I cosigned for a loan my first & only loan. Since then I tried many times to catch it up without asking for help. I didn’t ask for help when I went abused credit cards but someone as there for me. Once again I do not want to ask for help for this but unfortunately I don’t have kind of money laying around. As much I’ve tried to work for it I don’t have it. If anything this can be a lesson to others that try to take on a loan. If you don’t handle it responsibly it will come back to haunt you in the worst way. I’m going to go meet with this lawyer because legal action isn’t something I want to drag on. I’ve already let it drag on long enough. My current life is attempting to get things straight. I want to get them straight because the woman I’m pursuing definitely wouldn’t want this in the baggage department. I have few friends in high places but not many and I wouldn’t ask them for this amount of money. So I am reaching out anyone & everyone who’ll read this. I dug this hole myself but I need help getting out. The cliche is “what are friends for?” Well, I am at big low in my life. And if you can lend a hand then I’ll greatly appreciate it & do anything in my power to repay your generosity. I in no way asking for a handout. This is a plea to anyone who has few extra bucks because I refuse to give up until I can put this issue to rest. I’ll even make you an advertisement for your business or you for your contribution at I Cut Your Promo. (http;//ICutYourPromo.com)
I want to work for this any way I can. Especially since I virtually have no income for six weeks over the summer & would like to be able to work for each and every one of you. Please… this is my chance to right a bad decision. Thank you for reading & click donate if you can. Sincerely Jonathan.
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My first post stepping out from my brand is something I do as my brand & as the person I’ve been working towards. I really enjoy talking about other people. People who are fascinating to me and over night success in my favorite part about the way media is changing. Kayla Slone is a simple Wal-Mart cashier from the coal mining town of Logan, WV & with the use of an iPhone she’s been an instant hit with her singing. A local reporter brought, Nicky Walters, this story to TV. Then it went national. This is almost as amazing as when Landau Eugene Murphy Jr. won America Got Talent just a couple summers ago. I know there are doctors, psychologists & just plain detractors that say the internet & social media is bad or even a downfall. No, it’s not. It is changing the world, & it is inner connecting the world in a way that society doesn’t quite fully understand yet. It’s called growing pains, it’s called change, & it’s called Shift Happens.
Technology is shaping this world, I’m not stating anything new. Social media has taken an a deeper root than when it started with chat rooms, messages boards, & eventually Myspace way back in 2004. It’s now 2013… I’ve been working since 2006 to slowly claim little piece of this digital space. I’ve had the right tools for this all along but it’s the platforms I need to survive but I where I live in West Virginia I still have to get out and be a part of the community. The old grassroots method of carve out a niche that people remember you for & not because I want to do it, because I can do it. Even if there are few odd stumbling blocks along the way but that’s just life. I’ve been steadfast in realizing that there are time we all have to step back to figure out exactly what path we’re on. Mine, at least on the tail end of 2012 & beginning of 2013, has been to remember that where I currently work & where my passions are mix like oil & water. With success comes challenges from every direction. And over night success is even more of a different and scary animal. I hope Kayla is ready for it because I know the tastes I get at times can tend to be overwhelming. I guess the best way to sum it up would be with song by Toby Mac called Lose My Soul.