Going in 2016 I’m continuing my march into the digital profiles by adding my blogs to BlogLovin & hope to do more writing, videos, & everything else that can to be the best that can be in a vast world. God bless!
For the last two years I have had prophetic dreams come true in my life & I’ve enjoyed life but on days like today I don’t know or understand what my family & friends value in me.
First of all I’m a late bloomer, I’ve lacked concept of life until now but I’m getting better at it yet I’m also a little vicarious with makes a few people, both family & friends, worry about my choices, actions, & decisions. The people that believe in me have watched me fail at anything I’ve done throughout the course of my life. You may not admit it but I’ve viewed every avenue I’ve attempted as a failure due to feeling held back by something, fear maybe, criticism, or whatever strange feeling it is. My only comfort has been professional wrestling which I’m not meant for in ring competition though I’m pretty certain I could wow few audiences if the opportunity to do it comes around. Still everything else, idealized goal, has been short of what I wanted.
The worriers, you all are going to kill me with your worries! I have broad shoulder & know how to carry many loads but you cannot put your insecurity about me & reflect it back on me. Honestly, it makes me want run farther away than anyone realizes. You can say that’s selfish but to me it’s preservation because I cannot let what I do affect you all. When incidents arise I work my best handle them straight forward as to minimize the effects to only myself & rest of you do no have go through any more than you have to.
Maybe that’s the burden I have to endure because I care too much because other people care too much & have an over abundance of care for me. I just want a balance because if I don’t find it I’m going to choice reckless abandon over common sense. That doesn’t sound good at all.
This goes out to someone who became apart of my life a little while back & they know I’d break my back to see them happy, healthy, & always safely cared about.
Always my best friend
Always have your back
Always joke around
Always watching movies
Always is consistent and forever fades
Always just a thought away
Always NASCAR races
Always here for bad and good days
Always means everything
Always does not hide
Always means everything
Always is not dark
Always is good
Always is fearless
Always sports, especially Pittsburg
Always is the little things
Always stays close
Always no strings
Always just be you
Always… is always.
My poetry doesn’t ever seem to match the more elaborate thoughts when I’m typing it out. Maybe someday. I hope you enjoyed this dedication.
are the sweet words that were said to me when my life took on a whole new meaning.
Welcome to my world… it’s a fun, lighter side of life, & really it’s not serious. That’s the way I like things but also enjoy expression, experiences, & feelings.
This is what brings me to my website, blog, tonight. It’s a question that’s deeply on my mind because it’s something that makes me wonder how many more people are out there that do not know what real love is like.
Have you ever heard the saying, “you’re looking for love in all the wrong places.” I’ve heard it countless times throughout my lifetime but for once I think it has smacked right in the face. Not in a way that I expected. It’s come in a very unique form that makes me appreciate the perspectives that are presented but genuinely love on the deepest of levels.
What are the current issues, well for myself it’s patiences… due my eagerness but not only that it’s that for a while now my thoughts on the back of my mind are always upon this exquisite creature. Like any unique breed comes a very different set of lines to follow & sometimes it’s rough to remember that because it’s not the same.
I was in a conversation just the other day where the word love was used & I’ll admit at that very moment I wanted to instantly react with these words, “that’s not love.” I didn’t react because I would have been wrong on many levels & possibly hurt the someone so near to my heart that its indescribable sometimes. This bond is reaches far beyond words, admiration, & trust for if it wasn’t for that there wouldn’t be a solid foundation for all the ups & downs I see or have already seen. I hope one day they’re not afraid but that may not happen. I don’t know but what I do know is that I am always right here no matter what is said. You do that for me & it means the world to me.
We live in world full of problems, undoubtedly, but the best approach to this is just one day a time. A very close friend sent me that image above & it’s very important to remember to do your best daily. Sometimes, we don’t, there are those days where we have bad days & we fail to do anything justifiably good. In fact the seven billion people on this earth can do extremely evil things to each other than are completely unacceptable, unfathomable, & most of all just sadly unfortunate.
One situation doesn’t define us, solutions to world’s problems come from common people & not the decision makers in suits. They may weld the power but the truth is as sensible & sentient beings we have God given rights to live the way we all individually see fit. Freedoms.
What am I getting at for this Monday Blog?
We have choices, many choices, & there are times we make the wrong ones. If you make one then you should admit to it because when you make a mistake it much easier to make a negative a positive by choosing to say, “I was wrong in my actions & deserve any consequences you have for me.”
Whether it’s out in the open, personal, or private the solutions & roots to betterment begins inside ourselves so we can shae it to, sometimes, a dark world. As for the bad days, you pick up, make up, & “never do it again.” If you don’t learn from mistakes then you are doomed to repeat them.
The world has enough doom & gloom nowadays to be a monster like so many are. Slay the monsters, including your own, & make the world a better place by choosing positive paths. Not destruction.
It’s time for another birthday, & yes I am glad I’ve made it this far, but what have I really done with my life so far?
Sometimes, here is where it’s going to get fun, I live my life as if I’m a super hero with soulutions to everyone’s problems. Which, actually I don’t have, there are times I do pretty good at but Tony Robbins started his paid life coach career a long time ago from scratch but for some reason I don’t see that happening for me. Granted, I am a nice guy & would give you the shirt off my back to help a friend out in any way.
Sometimes, I feel a CEO of a company & corporation minus the pay. Actually, I am because in 2008 I started part time self video publishing & then continued into photography. Also, here is fun one, I was on YouTube nearly before anyone else way back in October of 2006. Technically I can call myself a YouTube Original if I put more videos out.
My point is, at this stage in my life I should be a successful 35 year old with my own family, supporting myself, & living the “American Dream” but as my life tends to go it’s all about being different.
All my life, and even now, something about the world has defined me to being an outcast so if I am such then I will find other freaks just like myself & we will rise. Trust me… mark my words as I venture on into what life has to offer via the opportunities than can be made just by being yourself. I will do it my way. If you don’t believe me then get off my crazy train but if you do then hop on now because it’s going to get interesting!
Where do I stand is an important analytical question for self evaluation. Somedays I think my answer is that I am not well defined or I’ve stuff doesn’t end up going my way yet I come out smelling like rose because i know how to handle situations. Society is a mess & the Unites States in general is a more paranoid place than I used to be but that’s all because terrorists made this nations fearful of every devil behind every bush. This isn’t a political rant, it’s a life rant on people & interactions. “The greatest tragedy is people don’t think.” Ryan Miller
I study interaction because so many people get it wrong, don’t express them well, or choose to put to much ill conceived thinking into something that should remain simple. I’ve been a victim of many of those circumstances where just because I know how to do something regardless of my title I’m treated differently. I’m a doer & want to do because I can benefit my family, my friends, & people I love. I getting to that point where if someone decides to cross my path trying to prevent what I love doing they’re going to be a stain on my road to what I want to accomplish. I love being a nice guy but I have a very close friend that’s taught me a little about being on the edge & how actions speak louder than words too. That’s why at the moment I feel like the odd man out of place in the overall picture, yet give me a day because those feeling pass. What’s important are the people who I know who support me without question. If I didn’t have those kind of people around me then everything I do would really feel quite meaningless, pointless, & everything I’ve done is waist of time. This year has been full of ups & downs. My 2013 hasn’t been all that easy but if it were not for God above, my own nature, & the company I find myself around I couldn’t do what I do. I made reference to the word title in the second sentence of this paragraph. That’s a reference to my real life job as custodian or service staff for a school system & it’s a title I cannot stand. I’m just going to blatantly & bluntly come out and compare ti to slut shaming, yeah you read that right, which has been around for quite a long time. I know the you all reading this out there are like, “hold the phone.” How can you compare your title of custodian to slut shaming where a woman makes herself available to men and gets criticized for the action. Simple, I ended up getting criticism for what I’m good & enjoy doing because someone else thought it was wrong of me to be doing photography, videography, digital media, & social media for a girls basketball team I spent four years around & put countless hours into making memories for them to enjoy after they move of from high school days of being a student athlete. I was shamed by one person, the community showed there endless support, & I ended up with very close friend in the process.
What I’ve learned in year timeframe with my close friend is a lot about life & sometimes following your desires. Individually I’m pretty strong person but my resolve wains at times because it sometimes I go out of my way to help all of my friends even if it means sharing a lot loads. Sometimes those burdens come in all different packages but that’s most of life is tackling all of those with a good support group of people who can really tell you that tomorrow the sun will rise & you have a fresh start to really keep proving to everyone what you’re made of even it you only have a good day. Who knows what might change overnight? Just always be ready for because its sometimes it can be a true test of what kind of person you really are. Always rise up to challenges & defeat them so that you can become better at what life throws at you my friends. Yet sometimes its all about consistency & nothing changes.
Below is an incident that occurred at an elementary school last week just a few minutes from where I live. Currently I work for this school system and have some open concerns a I want address. These are my own thoughts that may not reflect those of Kanawaha County Schools.
KANAWHA COUNTY, W.Va. (WSAZ) — A way to thank teachers for their service at Cross Lanes Elementary may have sent a disgruntled employee over the edge, prompting the school to be placed on lock down Thursday
Let me first state that I do not agree with his actions of making terror threats of attempting to blow up the school & endanger the lives of the children that attend that school, teachers, & other service staff.
What I do agree with are his feelings. Let me be clear, the above statement in black in white openly says I DO NOT agree with any part of those thoughts, he’s justified in having the feeling of being left out, excluded, or ignored. Okay, I understand not everyone in life can be a winner but some of the time people & organizations do not recognize the hard working contributions of the service staff employees of the school systems. Apparently, gift cards were enough to make this custodian snap, he may or may not of had history of flying off the handle. Still my point is as a person we’re not supposed to exclude others yet I know it happens quite a bit. Society is tiered. Poverty, middle class, & wealthy people but this happens at our jobs too. How many times to service staff miss out because they are considered lesser people? Remember the Civil War & it fight against slavery it in this country? Americans fought & died to make a person of color, blacks, free in this country. Now we’re fighting among ourselves over gift cards. Has that what disgruntled employee have come down to anymore?
Honestly I don’t know but what I do know is that I want to make people more aware of people & their feelings. I know many people can relate to being left out & we all cannot be winners. Still, I want to bring this subject to light that we’re taught from a very young age that were not supposed to segregate people. Everyone is supposed to be included in when the staff gets rewarded but that isn’t the case. Sometimes we are shunned like we don’t have even the slightest clue of what is happening in the school. Show up, do your job, & go home is what were expected to do & yet that all many people find as satisfaction in life. To me there is more to life than that. That’s why the I can identify with this custodian & how he felt left out. Overall my point that I may work for the education system & miss out but don’t forget that we are people too. That’s the way we want to be treated, like a person regardless of our job title.
Thanks for reading, I’m a custodian, but my title Is “Jonfun” Jonathan Miller.